On October 8 episode of JTBC's television show 'Knowing Brothers', MAMAMOO made a guest appearance.
During the talk, Hwa Sa talked about the time when she went through some difficulties in 2019.
Hwa Sa said, "After promoting as MAMAMOO in Japan for like a month, I got ready for 'twit' solo promotions right away. While I was promoting 'twit', I had to prepare for MAMAMOO's next music 'gogobebe'. My schedule was completely filled with stuff to do every day, and it was just too much for me."
She continued, "So, one day, I told the head of our agency how I felt and said I wanted to take a day off. But he was like, 'You need to work harder on days like this.' His words comforted me, actually. I felt really thankful that he said that to me. But I realized that promoting as a soloist is harder than promoting as a group."
She went on, "Sometimes, I get anxiety, and I happened to get one at our recent performance. It got a harsh one right before I had to go up on stage to perform. My mind and head went completely blank. At that time, the members were like, 'Hey, it's okay. You can do it. We know you can pull it off well.' I felt really touched. I honestly wanted to run away then, but they made me feel all okay."
Hwa Sa said, "I've never told them this, but... Sometimes, there are times when they annoy me. But if I think of this time, then my negative feeling about them turn into a positive feeling."
The K-pop star resumed, "It was when my uncle passed away. He was someone who was very important to me. I did go to his funeral, but I wasn't able to stay until the end, because I had a schedule to go to. When I got into our van, I noticed that Solar was wearing a black outfit. I just felt thankful that she cared that much about me. I cried so much at the back of the van, looking at her."
She added, "Plus, on the day when my family was sending him off after 49 days, Whee In joined us. She held my hand, and cried with me as the event went on. Moon Byul also sent me a long message to comfort me as well. I want to thank them for that time. The fact that someone else outside my family knowing how heart broken I was and cared enough to make me feel better was something to be grateful for, you know."
(SBS Star)